Sunday, January 10, 2010

A new look

Well, I am kind of planning on chemo.  Not because I want it, but because since I'll most likely need it, it's easier for me to plan on it, then if I don't have to have it, so much the better!

That being said, I read an article that said it's much easier to transition to a wig if you have hair that's in the shoulder-length or shorter range.  Some of you may not have seen me in person in awhile, but I had LONG hair.  Most of the way down my back, in fact.

So, I went to see my friend Sue (at Clip-Art in Waukee, for you DM people who are looking for a new hair person), who is the only person who ever touches my hair, and asked for a haircut.  She measured my hair before we got started, and found out we could donate my hair to Locks of Love, which was really exciting.

TEN INCHES later, my hair is really short (well, short for me, anyway), and some little kid who's had a rough time can wear my hair!

On another note, when we went to church this morning, there was a special music number that I found myself identifying with.  It's called, "Bring the Rain," and I think it's by Mercy Me.   Here are the lyrics:
"Bring The Rain"

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

I thought about this all afternoon.  I can't really "count a million times" or anything, but the rest of the song was so true for me.  God is my shelter in this cancer storm.  And I pray, and pray some more, for peace, for the chance to be free from cancer, for freedom from this painful and scary time.  At the same time, God is SO much bigger than my pain. He really is, and I am His, no matter what.  I just can't tell you how many times lately that I've thought about the fact that He wasn't surprised about my cancer like I was.  He wasn't shocked at all.  Instead, he was right there beside me when I got the news, and he's been holding Dave and I ever since.

So, if my cancer will somehow bring Him glory, then so be it.  No matter what, I'm His.  And no matter what, I'll join in and sing, "Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty."


  1. We love you both and know that our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, will give you a peace beyond your understanding through this process. We pray for you daily. Thanks for the updates. And bet you are adorable in short hair!!
    Jeff & Susan

  2. First of all, I love you, friend! You are one of the strongest people I have ever met in my life!! God makes you a woman of grace and integrity which I admire so much. Your friendship and encouraging words mean the world to me, and I'm praying for you, Kelli. I'm praying for you both daily. As always, I am there if you ever need anything at all. Caribou anyone?! :) BTW- I am unemployed so I have a ton of free time on my hands for once in my life. :)Brooke

  3. Kelli,

    I just read through your blog today and I wanted you to know that I'm praying for you. I remember when you first joined us at Transformers and when we all learned that you would be joining together in life with Dave. Your spirit is beautiful and your faith in God is evident in all you do.

    Bring the Rain was a song that spoke to me greatly after the death of my father and grandfather, and it still speaks to me every time we sing it in choir. I will be lifting you and Dave up to our Great Healer, knowing that when it gets tough, He will be your strength.

    With love,

  4. Love you my sister in Christ! I will be praying for you, so true that nothing is a suprise to God. That song spoke to me on Sunday too. God had put you on my heart during that time and I prayed (and maybe shed a little tear or two) for you. When we are weak HE is strong! He never forgets the desires of our hearts.

  5. Kelli and David,

    We are anxiously waiting with you; we wish we were closer and we could offer our love and support in a more real and physical way. We are praying for strength, courage and healing through the coming days. Kelli, we love and adore you.

    Dick and Madeline