Friday, February 26, 2010

Chemo delivers yet another kick.

Well, the day has come.  Actually, it came yesterday, I just was too traumatized to blog about it then.  But, I am very nearly bald.  It's true.  And yet, when you see me next, I'll have long hair.  That's because, while I lost most of my hair yesterday, I also got my wig! 

I had my head shaved to make going bald easier, and I'm so glad I did.  I didn't want to wake up with huge clumps of hair on my pillow, and my hair was starting to look pretty dead and lifeless anyway.  My scalp is really tender from the chemo, so getting "buzzed" was no picnic, but now the wig fits really nicely.  It's almost a perfect match in color. 

I was thinking about that verse in the Bible about the hairs on your head being counted.  Hang on, I'll find we go.
Luke 12: 6-7
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
 Well....the counting of my hairs will certainly be easier, but then I was also reminded that God knows exactly how many will grow back, too.  And aside from my hair, I am worth so much to my heavenly Father.  I love that.

I got a very lovely package in the mail the other day - it was from Knots of Love, a really great organization that donates hats to chemo patients (or anyone else with a life-threatening disease).  They've given over 41,000 hand-made hats away!  They gave me a sleep hat (the pink one), and two more for me to wear.  I wore the blue one to chemo today!
Sorry about the low-res cell phone pic.  Didn't have the energy to get out the real camera! Anyway, if you know someone who could use a cap, or really like to knit, you should check them out!  Christine, the lady who started it all, sent a hand-written note with the hats, and has been incredibly kind to email back and forth with.  Knots of Love has been amazing to work with!

Anyway, I'm not very excited about being bald.  But, it's part of chemo, and for me right now, part of life. However the wig and the hats are sure helping!  By the way, when you see me next, you'll know it's not my hair, because you read this.  I know sometimes it's hard to know what to say, but trust me, I already know I'm bald and wearing a wig, so it's ok to say something. :)


  1. Praying this week of treatment is much easier on you. It is awesome that Knots of Love and so many others feel that call to reach out to you and others in need of support and extra love. It is truly inspiring to me to see people reach out and do something meaningful. I hope you are continually lifted up through prayer and kind hearts throughout this hard time in your life. See you Monday!

  2. Forgot to let you know who posted. That was me, Angie. I'm a space, I'm sure you already know that :)

  3. I was thinking about you a lot yesterday. I'm praying that you'll find round 2 to be easier. I'm also praying that the LORD would remind you daily who you are in Him! I'm so glad to already see ways He's ministering to your heart! I can't wait to see the new look! You'll forever be beautiful in my eyes.

    Emily :)

  4. Wow. What a journey. Fridays have taken on a new face for us as we pray for you and your chemo treatments. Maybe this week wasn't so traumatic, except for the hair part. Hope your week goes better. Bless those people in Locks of Love and other organizations who are doing such a wonderful work. So glad you are remembering your worth in God's eyes. You are the apple of His eye(Ps.17:8). We love you. Jeff & Susan

  5. I love your new hats...I live in them almost everyday. :) I hope the week goes good for you and you don't get sick this next weekend. The body aches will go and very soon this will all be just a memory. You are halfway done! Well with the first part. Keep it up! You are inspiring a lot people and helping them understand what all goes into this disease. Sending many thoughts and prayers to you this week to stay healthy and NO fevers!