Hope and Encouragement

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I've mentioned lately that we've been working through some tough stuff with the kiddos.  I don't know when it will get easier.  Probably won't be today, and might not be tomorrow either.  And that's ok.  But in the meantime, I've been working at finding ways to feed my soul through a weary time.

Does anybody else ever start feeling tired like that?  You know, the kind of tired where it starts on the inside?  The kind that comes from putting "one foot in front of the other" for a long time?

If so, then this song's for you.  It came up on my playlist the other day, and I've played it often since.   

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It Might Be Hope | By Sara Groves

You do your work the best that you can
you put one foot in front of the other
life comes in waves and makes it's demands
you hold on as well as your able  

You've been here for a long long time  

Hope has a way of turning it's face to you
Just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself
it's been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hope

It's hard to recall what blew out the flame
it's been dark since you can remember
you talk it all through to find it a name
as days go on by without number

You've been here for a long long time 

Hope has a way of turning it's face to you
just when you least expect it
you walk in a room
you look out a window
and something there leaves you breathless
you say to yourself
it's been a while since I felt this
but it feels like it might be hope

This is from Sara Grove's album *Tell Me What You Know. I'm a huge fan of her music - it speaks to my heart so often.  I hope it encourages you as it has me!

*Note: Post contains my referral link.  You can also search Amazon independently to find the music if you'd rather!

She Had A Beard.

Overall, I really like Veggie Tales.  They're usually pretty funny, and Isaac learns a lot about the Bible from them.  In fact, the other day, he was explaining mercy to me in a way that was pretty clear for a 6 year old.  So, 3 cheers for Veggie Tales.

However, I have discovered their downside.

On most of the videos (that I've seen, anyway, which isn't all that many), they have Silly Songs With Larry (the part of the show where Larry sings a silly song...), and they have these crazy lyrics that get stuck in Isaac's head.

Yesterday, he had one random line in his head from the "I Love My Lips" song that he sang all.day.long.

"She had a beard.  And it felt weird."

It doesn't really matter if you've seen the movie or not, either way it's a weird line to hear over and over.  And the worst part?  It's now been stuck in MY head for HOURS.

Sigh.

But it's hard to ban videos that teach my kid about mercy and make him laugh so hard he falls off his chair, so we just might be stuck with odd lyrics for awhile.  In the meantime, if you hear me absentmindedly sing a weird lyric or two....well, you'll know why.

I'll Fly Away - and treasured memories...

I heard a newer version of an old hymn on the radio today, called, "I'll fly away."  It immediately reminded me of my Grandpa on my dad's side.  He went to be with Jesus several years ago now, but I still think of him often.  I remember him singing "I'll fly away,"  sometimes on his own, sometimes with his sons barber-shop style.

Here's an a capella version of the song that I found on YouTube.  It's a little slow in the beginning, but really picks up before the end of the first minute.  I think my grandpa and uncles sounded better, but it's a sweet reminder of them.

My grandpa was an amazing, godly man.  He lived a life of integrity and showed compassion to everyone he knew.  As sad as I was to lose him in this life, I knew that the words to this tune were the song of his heart:  "When I die, hallelujah by and by....I'll fly away to glory."  Because of his relationship with Jesus, dying wasn't the end of life - it was only the beginning.

I've been thinking about my Grandpa a lot as we get closer to adopting kids.  I don't know if there's a particular reason, except that I loved him so much, and that I wish my kids could meet him and know what an amazing man he was.  I hope and pray that they'll accept Jesus as their Savior, so that they can meet him in Heaven someday.

My grandpa was great with kids.  He was wise, listened well, could fix anything, and when he talked to you, it was like you were the most important person in his world at the moment.  As a kid, that's pretty priceless.  Actually, as an adult, that's pretty priceless.  He told great stories, and I wish I could remember them well enough to write them down.

I also remember him teaching us different songs, some of them in the Navajo language.  My grandpa had a huge heart for people who needed Jesus, and he, as well as other people in my family, had spent a lot of time with the Navajo Indian tribe.  Looking back, that's a piece of my family heritage I'm very proud of.  It made me think about people of different backgrounds, races, and cultures, and started framing them in my mind as people who God deeply loves and cherishes.  I think that's part of why it was so easy to say that we'd take any race when we adopt kids.

Even though it's been years since he went home to heaven, he still has an impact on my life.  His legacy is one of loving God, loving family, and loving people with his whole heart.  On the day he died, I pictured him in heaven, with God saying, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."  His life challenges me to love God, family, and others better.  I want to leave a legacy like my grandpa did.

I wouldn't bring him back to earth for anything, but sometimes I wish I could tell him thank you.  Thanks for being such a wonderful grandpa, for being an example of loving God, for raising a great son who turned into a wonderful dad for me.  He's given me so much.  As humble a man as he was, though, I don't know if he'd need to hear the words.  I think it would be enough for him for me to follow after God with my whole heart, just like he did.

So that's the plan: Love God, love family, and love people. With my whole heart.

The Heart of Adoption: Love me.

There's a song that Dave and I have been listening to lately, that pretty much brings tears to my eyes every time that we hear it. Dave's not saying whether he tears up or not, but it has really touched both of our hearts, and reminds us of why we want to adopt.



It's the very first verse & chorus that gets me - it's a boy, crying out to God and begging for someone to love him:

He cries in the corner where nobody sees

He's the kid with the story no one would believe

He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...

Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me

'Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means

I listen to those words, and my heart almost breaks.  There are kids out there who echo this prayer every night of their lives.  They're not just faceless masses - they are children and youth, boys and girls, with hearts that are dying to know love.

God has shown us so much love, so much compassion, and so much grace, that our hearts are simply overflowing.  Because of that, words cannot express how deeply we desire to pass that unconditional love on to children who need the love of Christ and the love of parents - to show them, "what love really means."  

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"Peace Peace" - a beautiful song and a deep desire.

I've found it hard to put into words all that I've been thinking about lately.  I couldn't even figure out how to blog about it all, and I've told the Internet a lot of things this past year.  But, I was listening to a song in my car today that really hit home.  It's Peace Peace, from Sara Grove's album O Holy Night (an album which  I believe I can safely give the title of "Favorite Christmas Album of 2010" to).

You can listen to the song for free by clicking here (lyrics are copied below, at the end of the post).

This year has been so....overwhelming.  And I've been thinking about that a lot lately.  At this time last year, we felt weary and exhausted, and were looking forward to 2010, because we had so many plans to make it amazing.  We had no idea that in just a couple of short weeks, our entire world would come crashing down.

Now, a year later, so many things are going in the right direction, but there are still days when I just feel tired.  And I get mad at the cancer that took so much out of me this past year.  And I struggle with understanding why it's so hard for us to have a family when I would do anything for the chance to be a mom.  There are days when life still just doesn't feel fair.  And on those days (and there have been several in a row this week), it's hard not to let those feelings steal my peace.

I love this song because it encapsulates the meaning of real peace.  "All your hopes and fears are met in Him tonight."  Sometimes it's easy for me to be results-oriented instead of heart-oriented.  I get really riled up thinking about unfair things, when that's never what God promised.  Fairness is not part of the gospel - it wasn't fair for Jesus to die on the cross.  It's not "fair" to be given the free gift of eternal life, when I've done nothing to deserve it.  God never promises fairness, but He does give us peace - in fact, he is the Prince of Peace (taken from Isaiah 9:6).

There's a verse that I've been thinking about ever since it was talked about in church last Sunday.  It was a great Sunday, where several people told their stories about how God's grace has changed their lives.  The last person to share talked about Philippians 4, and the peace of God.  Here's the passage:

 ⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 ⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹ Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

The really comforting part in all of these verses is that the peace of God guarding my mind has nothing to do with all my hopes and dreams coming true.  Peace comes through a relationship with God.  It seems like the steps are this:

• Rejoice in the Lord - be thankful for your relationship with Him, let that be a center stone.
• Present requests to God - be honest with what you long for, share the desires of your heart
• Trust in Him for the results, and experience the peace of knowing He is in control.

I want to be clear; I am speaking as one who is still working to figure this out.  I never want to come across as having the answers to everything.  I don't.  I just know that when my heart hurts, no matter what else I try, I find that God is always the most healing answer - that "all my hopes and fears are met in Him tonight."

Peace Peace (lyrics)

Peace Peace it's hard to find

trouble comes like wrecking ball

to you peace of mind

and all that worry you can't leave behind

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

are met in Him tonight

peace peace

it's hard to find

doubt comes like a tiny voice that's

so unkind

and all your fears they conspire

to unwind you

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

are met in Him

And in your dark street shines 

and everlasting light

and all your hopes and fears

are met in Him tonight

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

all your hopes and fears

are met in Him tonight

peace peace

peace peace

peace peace

Christmas music freebies

I'm still on Amazon (I took a short break to be productive, but came right back).  And, I have found some GREAT Christmas music downloads for FREE!  Here are a few of my favorites, in no particular order:

Joseph Dear Oh Joseph Mine, Mannheim Steamroller

Angels We Have Heart On High, Point of Grace 

A Classical Holiday (a sampler) (Thanks to MoneySavingMom for this one!)

Christmas Holiday (a sampler)

 Silent Night, Sixpence None the Richer

Timeless Christmas (a sampler) 

Please note: These are listed for free at the time of publishing, but as always, please be sure to check the price before downloading.

Enjoy!

Joy, History, Original Translations, and Personal Applications.

This is one of my all-time favorite songs to play on the piano.  So often, when songs about joy are played or sung, they are loud, exuberant, and happy sounding - for example, Joy to the World.  It's a triumphant song about Joy coming to the world in the form of a tiny baby coming to earth (and really, an absolutely wonderful song).

But there are times when joy is more of a calm, quiet knowledge that the Lord is God, that He is Sovereign, and that He lovingly holds me in the palm of His hand.  For me, this song embodies that emotion. 

This song is based off of Jesu Joy of Man's Desiring, which is one of Bach's most famous works, from the 10th movement of the cantata Herz und Mund Und Tat und Leben.  Most often, the English lyrics that we hear are the following: 

Jesu, joy of man's desiring,

Holy wisdom, love most bright; 

Drawn by Thee, our souls aspiring 

Soar to uncreated light.

Word of God, our flesh that fashioned,

With the fire of life impassioned,

Striving still to truth unknown,

Soaring, dying round Thy throne.

Through the way where hope is guiding,

Hark, what peaceful music rings;

Where the flock, in Thee confiding,

Drink of joy from deathless springs.

Theirs is beauty's fairest pleasure;

Theirs is wisdom's holiest treasure.

Thou dost ever lead Thine own 

In the love of joys unknown.

As beautiful as those lyrics are, they aren't the original lyrics. Here are the original lyrics in German:

Jesus bleibet meine Freude,

meines Herzens Trost und Saft, 

Jesus wehret allem Leide, 

er ist meines Lebens Kraft,

meiner Augen Lust und Sonne,

meiner Seele Schatz und Wonne;

darum laß' ich Jesum nicht

aus dem Herzen und Gesicht.

I personally can't read them, but according to this article, roughly translated, it means:

Jesus remains my joy,

my heart's comfort and essence, 

my eye's desire and sun, 

my soul's love and joy;

so will I not leave Jesus

out of heart and face.

I love these lyrics, and I feel the heart of them when I play George Winston's "Joy." Last year about this time I was nervous because I had an appointment with my doctor, as I had been feeling a weird lump in my breast. I kept playing this song, over and over, with every note an on-going commitment to keep Jesus as my joy, my heart's comfort despite my fear and uncertainty. Playing this repeatedly brought joy and peace to my heart in a quiet, consuming way.

This year is so much different. I have faced cancer, fought it, come out on the other side, and am moving on with life. We've started the adoption process, and this year for Christmas, I find myself pondering where our kids are, whether they're happy and safe, and whether anyone will read the Christmas story to them this year. Sometimes it's so difficult not to know those answers. So, once again, I find myself at my piano, in quiet moments of prayer and petition for our future kids, knowing all the while that Jesus is my heart's comfort, and that Jesus can comfort their precious little hearts as well.

For me, this song has become a musical explanation of the joy that comes from a continuing devotion to Jesus. It's not always a loud, exuberant sound, but it's a quiet joy that fills your heart to overflowing.  I love that Winston took the song and titled it so simply: "Joy," because that's precisely what my heart finds in this song. May you find "Joy" this season in the music and the words as well!

$5 for Mannheim Steamroller "Christmas" album!

After writing the other day about the Mannheim Steamroller album that we always used to listen to growing up, I realized I don't actually own the music, and have been wanting to listen to the album ever since I posted about it, and wasn't sure if I could wait till going to my parent's house this year.

So, I went to Amazon and found that they have the entire album for only $5.  And, since I have free giftcards from using Swagbucks, it was completely free for me!  If you sign up for Swagbucks through the provided link, you'll get 30 swagbucks as a sign-up bonus (I love Swagbucks, because to me, it's getting free money for things I was doing anyway).

However, even $5 is a pretty good deal for such a great collection of Christmas music, so I thought I'd share!

Sounds of Christmas: Hallelujah Chorus

I guess I must have had extra blogging energy stored up, I've been on a roll tonight!  Actually, I wasn't planning on doing anything else until my mom found this awesome video on YouTube (yes, my mom surfs the web and finds cool YouTube videos, that's just how she rolls).  It's of the Hallelujah Chorus.  Performed in a very....unusual...way.

But, if we're talking about Christmas songs with a message that packs a punch, then Hallelujah Chorus certainly brings a lot to the table!  I put the words below, and when you're finished watching the awesomeness, take a moment to read through the lyrics.  Wow.

|: Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! :|

|: For the Lord God Omnipotent reigneth.

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! :|

For the Lord God omnipotent reigneth.

|: Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! :|

The kingdom of this world

Is become the kingdom of our Lord,

And of His Christ, and of His Christ;

And He shall reign for ever and ever,

For ever and ever, forever and ever,

King of kings, and Lord of lords,

|: King of kings, and Lord of lords, :|

And Lord of lords,

And He shall reign,

And He shall reign forever and ever,

King of kings, forever and ever,

And Lord of lords,

Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

And He shall reign forever and ever,

|: King of kings! and Lord of lords! :|

And He shall reign forever and ever,

King of kings! and Lord of lords!

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

Hallelujah!

And the only thing I can think of to add:  Amen.

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Sounds of Christmas: O Holy Night

I love music.  I especially love Christmas music.  There's specific songs that we always listened to at the start of the Christmas season when I was younger, and they just make it feel like Christmas.  There's songs that I listen to over and over because I love the message, and there are songs that I listen to because they just make me feel happy.

"O Holy Night" is a song I have always loved, but sometimes get distracted by the enormous vocal muscles that must be exercised to execute the song (Sandy Patti's rendition comes to mind).  Beautiful, but I start focusing more on the music than on the words.

Sara Groves has a version of the song that I absolutely love.  It's a completely different melody, but the same lyrics.  I find that in this arrangement, I think more about the lyrics.  The night of Christ's birth was truly a holy, divine night.  The message in this song points us to Christ, and not only his birth, but his gospel as well.  Beautiful.

Here's a live version here:



Or listen to it for free here.

O Holy Night

Placide Cappeau de Roquemaure

arrangement Sara Groves 

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,

It is the night of the dear Savior's birth.

Long lay the world in sin and error pining.

Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.

A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,

yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees. And, hear the angel voices!

Singing O night divine

Truly He taught us to love one another,

His law is love and His gospel is peace.

Chains shall he break, for the slave is our brother.

And in his name all oppression will cease.

Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,

May we ever bless His holy name.

O Christ is the Lord. Praise His name forever 

His power and glory ever more proclaim!

O Lord when you came to the earth

O my soul, my soul felt it’s worth

O my soul, my soul felt a thrill of hope

Yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees. And, hear the angel voices!

Singing O night divine

Singing O night, O this Holy night

Singing O night divine

What are some of your favorite Christmas songs? 

I might actually miss radiation.

Let me me explain.

As you all know, music is really important to me.  As you may guess, I got that from my parents.  Both of my parents are musically talented - in fact, my dad's whole family is musical.  Some of my earliest memories of family reunions include my dad, his brothers, and my grandpa singing, "On the Jericho Road," acapella. I have always loved that song because of that! At our wedding, one of my most treasured memories (aside from the whole pledging our lives to each other thing), was my dad and his brothers singing our benediction, "The Lord Bless You and Keep You." 

When I was younger, on car trips, we'd often sing as a family to pass the time.  While some may find that slightly nerdy, those are some of my favorite memories from time spent in the car.  It was on one of those trips that I learned what has become my favorite hymn, "I come to the Garden Alone."  My family would sing it all together, and my dad and I have often sung it as a duet.

Here are the lyrics:

 

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The son of God discloses.

And He walks with me and He talks with me
And He tells me I am His own
And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known.

He speaks and the sound of His voice
Is so sweet that the birds hush their singing
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

And He walks with me and He talks with me
And He tells me I am His own
And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known.

I love this song - the imagery of God and me, spending time in a quiet garden, as "He tells me that I am his own."  Lately, radiation has become my garden.  Don't get me wrong - I hate how radiation makes me feel.  My skin is burned and very painful, and I'm always tired again.  But, 5 days a week, I have 5-10 minutes where I'm by myself in a room, and I have to lie completely still while the radiation machine rotates quietly around me.  I have been using those minutes to talk to God - to lift my friends and family up to Him, to thank Him for His faithfulness, and to simply feel joy in His presence.

A few months ago, I started praying that God would help me to be content where He has me - to not wish away time, but instead to trust that He has me exactly where he wants me, and thank Him for it.  In that radiation room, God is teaching me to bloom where I'm planted, and to use that time to the best of my ability.  I will celebrate being done, but I am thankful for the time that I've had in that room.

I'd stay in the garden with Him
'Tho the night around me be falling
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling

And He walks with me and He talks with me
And He tells me I am His own
And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known.

I don't know what God has next for me, but I am excited to find out.  In the meantime, I have 7 more days of radiation, so if there's anything I can pray for you about, please email me and let me know - I'd love to pray for you!

There's a song that has been running on repeat in my head lately - some of you may know it.  It's called, "If you want me to," by Ginny Owens.


Here are the lyrics:

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason
why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Chorus:
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise
You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a
world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering
Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

This song really hits home as I think about the journey I've been on in the recent months.  I don't feel the world turning against me, but it's felt like my body turned against me.  And no matter how many amazing people have surrounded us, there have been times where I've felt very alone.  And I don't know why God has brought this into my life.  But, I also know that I'm not the same person I was when I started, and I think God is using this in my life to refine me, to shape me and mold me.


I've been thinking about Jeremiah 29:11 a lot lately:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

So often it seems like this verse is uses as a promise that life will eventually feel good.  You know, kind of a "don't worry, the sun will shine again," kind of verse.  I've been thinking lately that it's much more than that.   I don't think the promise to prosper me and not to harm me has nearly as much to do with my physical well being as it does with my spiritual well being.  Cancer has been extremely taxing physically and emotionally, but I do believe that God is using this in my life to bring me close to him. 


Another often-quoted verse is Romans 8:28:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

It's one thing to say those words when everything is going great.  It's been another thing to say them when things aren't going as well.  But the fact is that the verse is the same, no matter what my circumstances.  God is the same, no matter what I'm going through.  He is still sovereign, and His word is always, always true. 


That's why, to me, Romans 5:8 is the REAL feel good verse of the Bible:

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

 The fact is, God will work this cancer for my good.  And the wonderful news is, whether I see how that works out or not, He has already sent his Son to die for me.  My trust in Christ for eternal salvation is something that cancer can't take away.  Rather, it's made me even more aware of my mortality.  It's made me aware of how small I am, and how big God is.  These words between Paul and God from 2 Cor 12:8-10 hit so close to home for me:

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

To say that I have not enjoyed cancer would be the understatement of the year for me.  Despite that, I can say that I am thankful for the ways that God has used it to strengthen my relationship with Him in the midst of it.  I can't say that I understand why I've had cancer, but I have felt His presence as He's led me through it.  He has been my refuge, my strength, and my comfort.


I've been doing a lot of thinking as all these cancer treatments are winding down, but these verse keep coming to mind over and over again, and they ring true every time!

Glorify the LORD with me;

let us exalt his name together...

...Taste and see that the LORD is good;      

blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

...blastoff

 And....here we go.  Last chemo treatment, two more weeks of pain.  Almost to the end, but even now, it feels out of reach.

I don't quite know how to feel right now (could be all the steroids I'm hopped up....why oh WHY do people actually enjoy the feeling of being on drugs?  PS, total side note, I'm so far removed from that kind of stuff that during one of my initial meetings with my doctors a few months ago, they tried to politely ask me if I was doing any illegal drugs....and I didn't even understand what they were talking about! All the nice, beat-around-the-bush ways they tried to ask went right past me!  I guess I don't know all the code words. Dave finally just looked at me and said, "they want to know if you do crack."  Then the nurse, trying not to laugh, said, "I think I have my answer already."

Anyway, the following is a song I have been listening to - my absolute favorite part is, "You never said it would be easy /You only said I'd never go alone." Wow.  I'll never go through life alone.  God will be there with me through chemo, through the pain that comes in the next few days, through the radiation, and through each step of my life.



If You Want Me To
By Ginny Owens
The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Chorus:
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

ya oh oh no

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to

Alright....here I go!